This poem is just so true and so how I feel right now, thinking of my Baby Star xxxx

I love my little kitty, she makes my house a home.

She always is my best friend, I never feel alone.

She makes me smile, she makes me laugh,

She fills my heart with love ...

Did some breeder breed her, or did she fall down from above?

I've never been a breeder, seen life through their eyes,

I hold my little kitty and just sit and criticize.

I've never known their anguish, I've never felt their pain,

The caring of their charges, through snow or wind and rain.

I've never sat the whole night through, waiting for babies to be born,

The stress and trepidation when they're still not there by dawn.

I've never felt the heartache, of a little life in my hands,

This darling little baby, who weighs but 60 grams.

Should you do that instead of this ....or this instead of that,

Alone you fight, and hope one day, he'll grow to be a cat, 

and bring joy to another being, and make a house a home,

You know it's all just up to you, you'll fight this fight alone.

Formula, bottles, heating pads, you've got to get this right,

Two hourly feeds for this tiny guy, throughout the day and night.

In your heart you know, you're almost sure to lose the fight, 

to save this little baby, but God willing ... you just MIGHT.

Day one he's in there fighting, you say a silent prayer,

Day two & three, he's doing well, with lots of love and care.

Day four & five ... he's still alive, your hopes soar to the heavens,

Day six he slips away again, dies in your hands day seven.

You take this little angel, and bury her  alone,

With aching heart and burning tears, and an exhausted groan,

You ask yourself "Why do this? ... why suffer all this pain?"

But see the joy your kittens bring... it really self explains.

So, when you think of breeders and label them with "greed",

Think about what they endure to fill another's need.

When you buy a kitten and with your precious dollars part,

You only pay with money ... we pay with our heart.

 This poem is so true and just touches my heart

Im still feeding Holly now every three hours, she is doing fine but not taking enough milk from Lily so Im having to top her up, she loves her bottle and loves her milky :-) I wind her on my shoulder she does a big burp then I kiss her and she sucks on my bottom lip while padding away on my lip/chin she is so cute and makes me feel happy and she reminds me why I breed these beautiful stunniing bengal kittens, love my babies so very much, feel lucky to be such a big part of their lives for the first thirteen weeks of their lives, I help shape them into what they will become and Baby Holly is going to be one amazing little bengal baby girl :-) Thank you Holly for making me smile again after the very sad loss of Baby Star at the week end. xxxx

Ariel and Dream are six weeks pregnant today, Ariel has a huge baby bump, Dreams bump isnt as big but growing bigger each day, its amazing to be part of some thing so beautiful and to watch my girls bumps grow and feel their babies move :-) so excited to see what they both have :-) not long now

Today we buried Star :-( such a hard thing to do :-( I purchased a beautiful large pot and a silver/pink rose bush from the garden centre

Play safe baby girl over at Rainbow Bridge, Grandad will take care of you, find Baby Hope and Wish Upon A  Star to play with, remember Tigger is there too, you have touched my heart for always, Love You and Miss You my precious Baby Star xxxx

Im writing this with a very heavy heart :-( Star made it through the night, how clever was she, I toook her to the vets at 10.30 this morning for more antibiotics and fluids by the time we got to the vets only 4 mins drive away, she was struggling, the vet had a look at her and we discussed all the options, not many :-( he suggested an xray to check all was ok, sadly the xray showed Star had a very tiny heart, normally kittens are still born or die a day or two after birth, but Star had some how managed to get to three weeks and three days, the only way forward was to say good bye :-( I sat in the chair at the vets and held her close to my chest, sorry baby girl, I love you so much, please go and find Grandad he will look after you and find Baby Hope, I kissed her lots and said sorry :-( the vet took her, at 10.55 am she left this world :-( my heart is broken beyond repair :-(

Star you gave me so much in your short life, you was the first to purr :-) you had the most beautiful face ever, so soft and gentle, you gave me lots of kisses and padds while feeding you this I will always keep with me in a special place in my heart, love you baby girl always, play safe at Rainbow Bridge Love Mummy & Daddy & Lily, Holly, Noel & Juniper x x x x

Just wanted to update you on Star, 
 
I have been giving her special baby milk since last week Tuesday and she has been doing well, this morning for what ever reason she would only take 1ml instead of 4/5 ml so off to the vets we went, he suggested we tube feed, this is some thing we have never done before, the vet said it was her only hope as she will no longer feed from Lily as she thinks I'm her mummy now, the vet taught me how to tube feed and I watched lots of videos, scary stuff :-( I managed to tube feed her at 2pm the at 3.50pm she was gasping for air I rushed her to the vets where she stayed on oxygen for an hour or so, she was given antibiotic and fluids,  the vet gives her a 50/50 chance :-( she is back home and has taken a couple of feeds via the syringe, she is warm and cosy, we are praying for a miracle that she pulls through, my heart is broken right now, I'm so scared  in case she doesn't make it :-( I will give her 100% love and care please rest ashore of that. She is such a precious sweet baby girl.
 
Please pray for her, Love you my sweet baby girl xxxx

Babies are three weeks old, all crawling about lots, eyes open and ears have popped up, its lovely they can hear me now :-) they get so excited to see me :-) the boys are huge, girls not as big but getting there with a little help from me :-) their little teeth are starting to come through now so sweet :-) Lily is getting better after having a water infection :-( keep up the good work Lily mummy loves you baby girl xxxx